After turning off the light tonight, I asked Halina how she feels about turning seven soon. "Good," she said right away. It was quiet for a moment in the darkness.
"Well," she added, "half my body feels good and half feels kind of bad." She reached for my hand and intwined her small fingers with mine. "Because I like being six."
Another tooth is loose. The first one to be loose since she lost her two bottom teeth a year ago, right around her sixth birthday.
What do you like about being six?, I asked, knowing as soon as I said it that it was the wrong question. After she fumbled around with that for a minute, I said, you're excited to be seven, but you have to say goodbye to six. You'll never be six again.
"Not this six," she agreed. "Just the kind that's in sixteen."
I let that silently wallop me for a moment.
You know, the six you are now will still be inside you, I said. Still a part of you. Just like the five year old you is inside you.
"And the four year old me is still inside me, and the three year old, and two year old, and one year old?"
Yep.
She fell asleep and, for a bunch of reasons, I shed a few tears in the pitch black room, appreciating my six year old girl to pieces.
Here's Halina (in the stripes) dancing with a friend at assembly this morning.